so what started as a happy little inspired journey into vegetarianism last January has turned into a chronic back and forth, keeping me up at night, overwhelming THING that is just consuming me. i dont know what to do. The more I read, the more informed i get, the more confused i am. The closer it gets to the fall/winter, the more i want to cook all my meaty favorites. I watched Food Inc. I've reread the kind diet a thousand times. ive been to some vegetarian rallies that i loved. I'm still really involved. But there's this part of me that seems to growing everyday that just wants to buy some meat from whole foods, maybe a couple times a month, to make her favorites. that wants to cook and eat all her old favorite comfort foods with her husband (who is very supportive but not veg)
when i say i'm up at night about this im not lying. l go from being appalled to the idea of killing something just to TASTE it, when i know i dont need it to survive. on the other hand i think its good that there are places out there, little family farms, who do take the time/effort/money and work to keep sustainable farms. i know that we as a people ate meat for a very very long time, and i dont have a problem with that. what i seem to struggle with more is how much that has changed and been industrialized, and how much suffering and damage has to come animals, the planet, and us because of it. so then i think that maybe we as a people are getting more enlightened, and realizing that animals are more like us than we thought, and deserve better, and that we dont have to eat them to survive, so why eat them? maybe there's a natural process thats happening there too?
i dont know. i just know that this is consuming me. i watch and read and listen, hoping that i'll hve some grand epiphany, and instead i end up just more informed and more confused. help help help!
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